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Marahil mas nadarama natin ang ating pagiging buhay na buhay sa mga mumunting "Bulagaan" ng ating buhay. Mga pangyayaring bigla na lang susulpot-kabuti. Marami kang hindi inaasahang pangyayari ang nagaganap. Parang hulog ng langit (o hagis ng impyerno) na malaking bato na sumisigaw na "Huli ka  balbon! Bulaga!"

Minsan kapag pumapasok ako sa  gusali ng aming opisina,  habang pikit pa ang isang mata,  ngingitian ako ng  guwardiya , "Good morning Miss Bernadette!" Noong una niyang pagbati ay laking gulat ko, paano niya nalaman ang aking pangalan?! Ako ba talaga ang kanyang tinatawag? Bakit naman Bernadette. Sosmio! At ako ay gising na sa isang panaginip sa kadahilanang hindi mawari kung panaginip ba ang lahat ng ito. Bernadette ba talaga ang aking pangalan?! Ngingiti na lamang ako dahil maaalala ko iyong masungit na gwardya namin noong HS o kaya ung mala-robot na may stick na gwardya na parang laging may kutob sya na may bomba sa aking bag sa aking dating opisina.

Kahapon habang nakikipagdiskurso sa aking ka-opisina sa kanyang lugar, bigla na lang may humampas sa aking ulo. Napamura ako ng malakas! Bakit may bumato sa akin?! Iyon pala ay bumagsak ung mala-styrofoam ng aming kisame (?yun ba tawag dun?). At ako ang maswerteng nakasalo nito. Hahaha!

At sa kabagutan ng IT, minsan ay mga hindi talaga inaasahang pangyayari. Kagaya kahapon ng naka-"maximize" ang meebo.com ko, bigla na lang tumabi sa akin ang manager ko. "So Jasmine, how's it going?!" Nanlaki na naman ang aking mga mata habang sumisilip ang kanyang mga mata sa aking mga chat windows. Huli ka! At ako ay nabuhay sa kabagutan.

Isama na rin natin iyong mga pangyayaring bibilis ang indak ng ating mga puso. Noong isang araw, sa pagiging tunay na Pilipina kong mahilig sa shortcuts, muntik na akong ma-peligro. Dahil ako ay nagdouble lane sa u-turn at may katabi akong pulpol na hindi tumitingin, muntik na kaming magkabanggaan. Ilang cm na lang ay muntik nya nang kalabitin ang kakaayos lang na aking vroom vroom. Narinig ko ang malakas nyang sipa sa break. Buti na lamang... At ako po ay nanginig. Tsk tsk!

Mga biglaang lambing. Kamusta mula sa kaibigan. Napakaliit na pagtaas sa sweldo (na may kasamang mura). Pabaon ng mga magulang. Pagbalik ni Gabby Concepcion sa Pilipinas (hahaha). Nakatatakot na pagkausap ng isang Bumbay sa mall. Nakawiwindang na mga tanong ng iyong pamangkin. Pagkamatay bigla ng 5 malalaking koi na worth 50K na. Away-bati. Bagong masarap na pagkaing natikman. Pagbaha sa iyong bahay dahil sumabog ang bomba ng tubig. Pagka-hulog sa hagdanan.

"Oo buhay pa ko!"

Sunday. The day when the chirping of the birds substitutes your alarm clock. The sunlight teasing your opened curtains replaces the snooze button. This is the day when time slows with silence, you lie down every hour or so, knowing tomorrow's yet going to be a stressful day.

A perfect Sunday begins with a fresh fruit shake, sunny side up egg, bacon and newly cooked rice. Or even better, a tsokolate e drink, tinapa, tomatoes, hot pandesal, salted eggs and a plate of rice. Mix that with the Sunday newspaper by the rocking chair after a full tummy, and the day becomes even more perfect.

Your bed is even colder, or so you imagine, magnetizing your body every minute of the day. You instantly grab a copy of a forgotten pocketbook, and you drift into a wonderland. Ahh Sunday, the time when you finally find the time for yourself.

A sea of piled movies line up your sight and you try to watch it one by one. Or if not in the mood, you dust off your things while listening to old school radio. You hum and dance at the same time, feeling good about yourself for no reason.

And then the smell of a freshly homecooked meal prepares you for a battle. You eat like there's no more tomorrow. And you end up just like how you started the day -- in bed like a fat cat rubbing her big stomach!

You resist going to the mall or do something worthwhile. You avoid driving since it gets shocking to see deserted roads and frustrating fighting behind a lazy driver still in their heavely siestas fighting a measly 4 kilometers per hour. You turn down parties and reunions, suffocated by the thought of the same faces and routine you'll come face to face with in the long days ahead.

Instead, you take a walk while savoring the moment, or stop by an old friend for a joke and chismis. And after hitting satisfied exhaustion, you decide to be beguiled by the afternoon entertainment news.

You simply don't check the time, or the date. All that matters is that it is Sunday, the line that draws a refreshing start from heaven's end. The day you dread the sunset, or even worse, the night time when you prepare for another dose of routinary stress. And the moment you're about to take your rest, you unexpectedly realize that you're getting old.

But yes, you pray that time slows down until you finally leave your own nest. Oh Sunday, you wish it was forever.

EcoQuest International

Pasensya na. I'll be posting some of my previous posts from my entries in Multiply since the latter's not qualified yet to earn mullah. Try lang ito if I can earn by posting =) You'll notice I'm going to have ads now in this site. Wish me luck! =D

There is this one person who's been dragging me down. For a long time, I've lost my self-esteem because luckily I always have this someone who puts the blame on everything this person doesn't have. From the inconceivable shallow things to the things I highly value, this person has everything against me. I am sick of living a life and afraid of hurting this person since my happiness equates to this person's hurts.  I don't like being blamed for being born into this world. I always unconsciously try not hard enough, become unsuccessful, not love the best I could and live a life of mediocrity. Since I'll end up hurting this person, I don't want to be favored by everyone. And so I grew up being selfish, stubborn, despicable and an underachiever.

I wish I could be stronger and finally find forgiveness for this person. But I guess every time this person lifts a finger against me, I become weaker than ever. I let it win. I accept the blame.

How will I handle the damage? I am scared that I’ll treat life with more cruelty and eventually have the ways this person dealt with it, putting the blame instead on this person.

I guess I will constantly feel my defeat. I am vengeful and I can never forgive you. You’ve taught me so.

And just like the old days, I can always put on a band-aid smile and get on with my life.

Have you ever felt you're all alone, the world is on your shoulders and there's nobody out there to comfort you?

Last night, I felt emptiness. Amazingly, the people you're counting on were unavailable.  All I needed was an assurance that it's all going to be alright, or a warmth of a hug to end my misery. Sadly, I was buried with my own tears like a lost child calling her God. And in Him, it's great to seek comfort when you find none out there.

It's scarier to finally find what you're looking for and come face to face with reality that you'll be happier when you're alone.

Hey everyone, I'm transferring to http://jazzperez.multiply.com

Add me up before you go-go=)

I will still maintain this site but will put more updates to the new one.

Have a meaningful Lenten season!

Janella San Miguel, Ms. Binibining Pilinas 2008 winner, is being criticized for her terrible English. It’s not just about her English, it’s her failure to even answer the question. She was asked what her family’s role was in her Bb. Pilipinas candidacy  and the only thing she could answer in connection to her family was that they’re the most important persons in her life. It’s not even a role and everybody knows families are our important persons. Hah!

 

Maybe she was scared to converse in English (though she’s a MassCom student, eh?)? Mental block? Maybe this should be a wake-up call that our beauty pageants should be conducted in our native tongue? It’s alright to speak in Filipino, as long as there is substance in the answer. And Ruffa G., spare us from your "English = brains" equation. Come on!

I dream of settling down by the beach and mountains someday. The perfect setting. The stillness of the day. Tranquility of the music of the waves. Vastness of the color of the ocean. Predictability of beauty. Calmness of the night. Simple lifestyle.

 

Everything is put into place.

 

I want to rest with the composure of nature… away from the disarray of urbanity. The only thing that would matter is the glimpse of sunrise and sunset. The experience of the greater good becomes more authentic with nature. I will become less powerful, yet I am one with the order of nature. I want the feeling of this kind of happiness, wherein I become contented by merely looking at my surroundings. When time doesn’t become felt at all for every moment is harmony.

 

I wish I can live this life someday. Where no expectations would be anticipated, no greater good can be imagined, and my sense of being becomes existent.

 

I sometimes lose my purpose in the city. I also lose my faith with the hustle and bustle of life. I guess modernity sometimes becomes a distraction for the essence of life.

 

No, I don’t want to become a hermit. And this is not an act of escapism. I just want to appreciate the magnificence of life, where I will find solace with the scenery. I can swim if I want to. Rest by the hammock and read all day. Climb the mountain, catch fresh air and enjoy the scenery. It’s only with this kind of environment that I think I could find Him… when my spiritual being finally becomes realized.

 

Maybe we all find this solace only when we die… that there is no such experience while we’re living. I hope not.

Look Ma, I can surf!

Malditas Sunset Jump

Mga Nognog

BAGO ANG LAHAT
PAALALA BEWARE!

BAKA MATAKOT KAYO O MASAMID SA MGA SUSUNOD NA LETRATO

HINDI KAMI ABNOY

MGA MALDITAS LANG =)

HULAAN NYO ANO YUNG THEME!

AYUS!

Kawen Pose

 

Kawen Pose 2

 

Kawen Pose 3

 

Kawen Pose 4 (Exag ung smile ko..Peace Kawen!)

 

Najejebs look

 

Nangangasim Look (Pwede na ba ko sa Sinigang Flavor Mix comm?)

 

Gymnast Look (ano ginagawa ni Ice? hahaha)

 

Kadiri Pose again

 

Matanda Pose

 

Inaapi Pose

 

Maniac Pose

 

Inaantok Pose (Si Jill kamuka ni Storm!)

 

Tiger Look Pose (Jill's da best! hahaha! Pwedeng pang-cartoons e. She's the one in yellow)

 

Boldstar Pose

 

Nang-aakit Pose (Ako abnoy pose... Si Icar wolongyo!)

 

FHM pose (Jill, censored  yan!)

 

Mahinhin Pose (DJ, ano nangyari sayo?)

 

Masungit Pose (Ako naging kamuka ni Pepe Smith...Natatawa ko sa mukha ni Jill, parang lumulutang. hahaha!)

 

Tulala Pose (tingnan nyo si Abby!)

 

Dilat Pose

 

Aiza pose..Nagmuka kong kuhol!

 

Ulo lang pose

Jill, Arabo ka?

 

Pacute Pose

 

Pacute pose 2

 

Natatakot pose

 

TUlog Pose (si Icar nakangiti!)

 

Tulog Pose (Icar nakangiti pa rin..si Ice nakadilat!)

 

Si Jill mukhang aso dito

*Opisyal nang tumatanggap ang Malditas ng mga offer na pang-teatro/MTV/short films/indie films. We are great indie performers/posers with minimum fee of trips to Siargao, CDO, Camiguin, Palawan, Sagada, etc. Mababaw lang kaligayahan namin =P

 

I am still in a state of depression. I find myself useless. I still hate my job. I am bored 99% of the time and there is no feeling of fulfillment. The only reason why I still go to work is to make a living.

 

Maybe it’s me or my lack of my enthusiasm. Maybe I want something new. Maybe I am not fit for an IT job. I dread to believe the latter, since an IT job is the only thing that could help me achieve my financial goals and to work abroad. What will I do if I discover that this is not my true vocation? It’s scary.

 

I want to know my true calling. I want to have a stable mindset.

 

Maybe I shouldn’t be thinking much. I don’t know. Maybe I am just a lazy IT analyst in denial.