For the sake of myself
being remembered by my short-term memory I write lines--overly non-sensical
lines of random thoughts burning with pessimism, nauseous hopelessness, spoofable
reflections, gibberish rants and sometimes retracting suicidal grains of food
cravings, insane cursings... I don't write to be appreciated. My fiction deserves
no attention. I type blank-spaced blahs of words, similar to forgetful lines
if ever you are reading these words, forgive yourself on why the heck you've
thought of browsing this page. You might feel depressed as I ponder my thoughts
on my life... so you better exit now and save yourself from insanity. Bow.
Sheethead
Queen
This is a blog written by the queen of Sheetheads. Wondering what that word
means? Sheethead is a clay mineral powder which is used to absorb oil and
grease from non-washable fabrics. Or maybe it means a head full of bright
semi-shitty crappy ideas. Or maybe Sheethead doesn’t mean anything.
This blog is
full-heartedly dedicated to Smokey’s hotdog, isaw, hematophobics, Master
Splinter of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, to people strangled by the Sheethead,
to anti-posers, to the late Luis Taruc and other Pinoy liberalists and nationalists,
to the Visayan nephew, to paranoid loving parents, to siblings and relatives,
to Christian Bautista, to Iranians, to Quentin Tarantino, to UAAP fans who’ve
mistaken this blog as their idols’ fan site, to the wondrous sights
of the Philippines and of course, to YOU! YIHEE!
Quote
for the day:
If you do not know who I am, maybe you do not know who I am.
Thus, I’ve
crafted “Ten Magnificent Random Things You Should Know About
Me.” Only 90% of this is authentic. 1 is a lie.
1. I am a 24 year
old IT analyst in denial. I am an MIS graduate of the Ateneo de Manila University. I have been blogging since 2004 and developed my asthma while being bored with corporate life.
2. I am afraid of blood and roaches.
3. I am currently addicted to Damien Rice's, Up Dharma Down's and The Beatles' music.
4. I have mild amnesia and I am a fulfilled insomniac.
5. My dream is to be DOT's secretary someday.
6. I still dream of becoming a rockstar someday.br>
7. I crave for lobsters, isaw, kilawin, Meatshop's steak, more prawns, oyster, Lord Stow egg tart, Philadelphia cheesecake, aligue, calif maki, leche flan and tomato soup.
8. My knight will soon take me to Sagada, Mt. Pinatubo, Camiguin, Siquijor,
Sorsogon, Siargao, Isabela and Sulu.
9. Horsebackriding was my passion. Surfing is my dream.
10. I love singing DJ Alvaro's songs on videoke.
Wishlist:
Condo in Makati, Canon EOS 40D, Wii, TV Stick Tuner for iMac, stone driller, Godfather original DVD, P.O.A dress, violet Chuckies, free one month massage, Kitkat, Choco Mallows, Lord Stow egg tart lifetime supply, JBL sound system, B Series MB, violet Samsonite luggage, gold Rolex watch, all expense-paid trip to Batanes, Tokyo, Mt. Pinatubo, New Zealand, Siargao, Marinduque, Guimaras, Swiss Alps, France, Himalayas, Africa
Book-o-rama
Great Reads:
Alan Lightman, Nietzsche, Freud, Jessica Hagedorn,
Randy David, Conrado de Quiros, Dave Eggers, JD Salinger, Mark Haddon, Lourd de Veyra,
Doug Lansky, Michael Cunningham, Frank McCourt, Harper Lee, Gabriel Garcia
Marquez, Ramil Gulle, Bill Watterson, Roald Dahl, Nick Joaquin, Robert Fulghum,
Neil Gaiman, Citiatlas
Music-worthy
Lokals:
Dicta License, Up Dharma Down, Urban Dub, Sugarfree, Cynthia Alexander, Rivermaya, Radioactive Sago Project, P.O.T., Imago, Razorback, Wolfgang, Orange and Lemons, Brownbeat All Stars, Bamboo, The Bridge, Sugar Hiccups, Sheila and the Insects, Sponge Cola, Sandwich, Sponge Cola, Session Road, Kjwan, Kapatid, Barbie’s Cradle, The Teeth, Eraserheads, HYP, Joey Ayala, Gary Granada, Brownman Revival, True Faith, Side A, Parokya ni Edgar, Freestyle, South Border, Christian Bautista, Michael Cruz, Gary V.
Music-worthy Foreign Invasions:
Smashing Pumpkins, The BEATLES, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Damien Rice, Nirvana, Moonpools and Caterpillars, Aida Broadway, Foo Fighters, Oasis, 311, Our Lady Peace, Pearl Jam, Incubus, Deftones, System of A Down, Jars of Clay, Fra Lippo Lippi, Depeche Mode, The White Stripes, Janis Joplin, Boyz II Men, Silverchair, The White Stripes, Caetano Veloso, Tracy Chapman, No Doubt, Vertical Horizon, A Perfect Circle, Snow Patrol, Ne-yo, Regina Spektor, Keane, Sarah McLachlan, Ben Folds Five, Third Eye Blind, Usher, Live, Rage Against the Machine, Cold Play, Alanis Morisette, 50 Cent, Cranberries, Jewel, Tori Amos, Staind, Blur, Stevie Wonder, At The Drive-In, Nat King Cole, Goo Goo Dolls
Movie
Mania
In
The Mood For Love, Big Time!, Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros, Reality Bites, Legend of 1900, Gattaca, I am David, Endo, Juno, Kite Runner, Schindler's
List, , Olivier, Olivier, Fight Club, City of God, Chungking Express, Cinema
Paradiso, Malena, Children of Heaven, Children of Paradise, Primal Fear, American
History X, Fahrenheit 9/11, Ganito Kami Noon, Paano Kayo Ngayon, Karnal, Fallen,
Catch Me If You Can, Fallen Angels, La Jette, Y Tu Mama Tambien, Amores Perros,
The Crime of Padre Amarro, Legend of the Falls, In America, American Beauty,
Snow Falling On Cedars, Amelie, Run Lola Run, Talk To Her, The Rainmaker,
Seven, Life is Beautiful, My Best Friend's Wedding, Confessions of A Dangerous
Mind, How To Lose A Guy in 10 Days, Kill Bill, Godfather 1, Motorcycle Diaries,
Godfather 2, Closer, Mulan, Shawshank Redemption, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's
Nest, The Others, Practical Magic, Chocolat, The Matrix 1, Shrek, Monsters,
Inc., Almost Famous, The Pianist, Girl Interrupted, Lost in Translation, Cider
House Rules, Devil's Advocate, Dead Man Walking, Philadelphia, Citizen Kane,
Not One Less, Minority Report, Sixth Sense, Big Fish, Kill Bill 2, Godfather
3, Artificial Intelligence, Killing Me Softly, Vertical Limit, L'Appartement,
Au Revoir Les Enfantes, Osama, The Adaptation, Imelda, Queen Margot, American
Rhapsody, La Vida Rosa, Before Sunset, Waking Life
Isang hapon sa ika-tatlumpu't walong palapag, nakadekwatro ako sa aking purplang upuan. Bugnot sa kadalamhatian ng maghapong pakikipagkindatan sa aking kompyuter, lumundag ang kalamnan ng aking puso nang nakita ko ang status mo na "away." Sinilip kita kung saan ka papunta at noong nakita kong papunta ka sa printer na malapit sa kinalalagyan ko, dali-dali akong nagprint ng anumang dokumentong maaaring maipalabas sa makina. At inunahan kita sa printer! Dali-dali kong kinuha ang papel na alam ko namang sa iyo talaga. At bumalik ako sa aking puwesto dala-dala ang mga hinahanap mo. At nagmistulang aktres ako alang-alang sa pag-ibig, dali-dali akong bumalik sa printer kung saan hinahalughog mo ang makina para sa papeles na nasa mapagmahal na kamay ko na.. At aking winika ang "I think this is…I think this is… yours." Yakap-yakap kong ibinigay sa iyo ang iyo naman talaga. Mula sa pagka-kunot ng iyong noo, tinuyo mo ang pawis na namuo sa iyong mukha dala ng kapaguran sa paghahanap ng mga dokumento… ngumiti ka at sinabing, "Yes, this is mine… but… can I be yours?" Magugulat ako sa milagrong namagitan sa ating dalawa.
At isang araw din sa milagrosong ika-tatlumpu't walong palapag, nagbunutan na raw ng monito monita para sa isang buwang pagpapalit ng mga regalo. At milagrosong nabunot natin ang pangalan ng isa't isa! At patago nating ilalagay ang regalo ng pag-ibig sa isa't isa na may kasamang halik mula sa labi. Magtataka pa tayo kung sino si monito at monita ng mga puso natin! Ipagdarasal natin na sana'y nabunot natin ang parehas na pana ni Kupido. At sa pinal na araw ng pagpapalit ng regalo ng Pasko, magkakataong nasa ilalim tayo ng mistletoe at sasabihin mo "Hey, by the way, I'm your monitow." Manlalaki ang mga mata ko, magkaka-konbulsyon ang labi ko, maninigas ang bawat sulok ng aking arteri… at pabulong kong sasabihin… "Ikaw monito, ako monitaw mow…" At papatugtugin ang romantikong tugtugin na "Jingol Bells Jingol Bells Jingol old a way!" At doon, sa tinakdang panahon, sa tamang oras, sa saktong ilalim ng mistletoe, tayo ay magjijingol old a way.
At isang araw din sa pinagpalang gusali, matatagpuan natin ang ating sarili sa may lobby, hinihintay ang ating mga sundo. Ngunit nagka-rally na ang bawat Binay ng bansa, nagka-baha-baha na ang bawat Uste ng bansa, nagka-buhol-buhol na ang trapiko sa bawat lansangan, nagkapiling din tayong dalawa. At doon una nating mararanasan ang masinsinang paghihintay. Sa unang pagkakataon, nasarapan tayo sa paghihintay. At pasimple nating tinitingnan ang bawat isa sabay bigkas-dasal na hindi na tayo sunduin ng sinuman. Mabubuhay tayo sa pagsusulyap sa isa't isa. Magiging alipin natin ang oras na pabaliktad na gumagalaw. At mananatili tayo roon, nakatayo hanggang madaling araw. Manginginig na ang ating mga tuhod sa kapaguran ng paghihintay. Rarayumahin, matatabunan ng alikabok, inamag na ang lahat, nandoroon pa rin tayong dalawa.
At isang araw din, sa milagrosong ika-tatlumpu't walong palapag ng gusali, nag-iinit na ang aking ulo dahil sa kawalan ko ng lohika sa programming. Dali-dali kong kinuha ang Fresh Milk na nakasilid sa palamigan. Ininom ko ito at tamang tama, may kinuha ka rin sa palamigan. At para bagang nakainom ako ng droga, nilapitan kita at nagwikang "I smell some testosterone!" At tila nanabik ka sa sinabi ko, inihalik mo ang baso mo ng gatas sa aking itim na baso. At nabagsak natin parehas ang ating mga baso. Magagalit ang mga taga-City Service at tatakbo tayo papunta sa ilalim ng iyong cubicle upang taguan ang City Service na sumisigaw ng, "Wag nyo kong takasan mga hinayupak! Kakaltasin sa sweldo ko ang mga itim na basong nabasag nyo!" At para tayong mga batang hahagikgik ng hahagikgik habang ang mga paa natin ay patuloy na dumadaloy ang dugo dala ng pagbasag ng mga baso.
At sa huli, matatagpuan ko ang aking sarili sa ika-tatlumpu't walong palapag na miserable kaka-katha ng taliwas sa realidad. Maaaninagan ang distansya sa pagitan nating dalawa. Alam kong bakla ka pa rin na kung maglakad akala mo'y kinakaladkad… (ang puso ko).
Posted at 11/10/2005 11:21:01 pm by jazzthoughts
DJ January 29, 2008 08:49 PM PST Hahahahaha! Anong nagjingol ol da way?
Aksenchur! November 11, 2005 01:12 PM PST Pambihira.. pick-up line of the millenuim! --> Yes, this is mine… but… can I be yours?”
